Tuesday, August 31, 2004

this from here

hehe...lotsa fun..really addictive!

current song by Crush by Jennifer Paige

tired of being strong; i want to be weak, if only for a little while
tired of playing games; i'll take it straight up, as straight as u can wing it that is
tired of being all sugary sweet; look me in the eye and u'll see whats being offered
tired of playing innocent; im not, deal with it

current song by Sweet Child of Mine by Guns'n'Roses

Sunday, August 29, 2004

When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
You're caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head
When hopes and dreams are far away and
You feel like you can't face the day

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash, then crash and burn
You're not alone
....
Because there has always been heartache and pain
And when it's over you'll breathe again
You'll breath again
- Savage Garden "Crash and Burn"

so K, we're probly not there yet but we'll be fine... just fine
just want you to know how much i cherish ur friendship and u can always count on me babe!

current song Affirmation by Savage Garden

Friday, August 27, 2004

called in at work to say i was going to be in a little late...my boss insists i take the day off..
was i getting a little too much on his nerves or was he really sorry for my knee?
beats me....

current song Nammaku Nammaku sung by SPB, composed by Illayaraja from Rudraveena

Thursday, August 26, 2004

pareidolia: misperceiving a vague but suggestive shape as something definitive.

hmmmm...

current song Me Against the Music (Rishi Rich's Desi Kulcha Remix) by Britney Spears (feat. Madonna)

very interesting music there...

There was a time
When I was so broken hearted
Love wasn't much of a friend of mine
The tables have turned,
yeah'Cause me and them ways have parted
That kind of love was the killin' kind
Listen, all I want is someone I can't resist
I know all I need to know by the way that I got kissed

- Aerosmith, Cryin'

current song Cryin' by Aerosmith

and today i feel i can't handle living upto expectations....

most importantly mine.

where's my shell?

current song Uninvited by Alanis Morissette

(sigh...i cant even begin to describe what this song does to my senses)

Wednesday, August 25, 2004

Dare I attempt, yet cannot fathom,
The mystery that renders it uncommon.

My senses controlled, yet I succumb,
To the intoxication of the sweetest kind.

A twitch, the curve, so soft and full,
(sigh) A longing to touch it, but I pull back.

For if it vanished, so would my dreams,
The fire, iced; my heart, wrenched.

Endless the days would be, the nights the darkest ever,
A melancholy gloom eclipsing the joys of love.

So smile my love, do smile for me,
For it is what I live for , and it is that by which I love.

current song Always be My Baby by Mariah Carey

Tuesday, August 24, 2004

i sure must have a hispanic ancestor tucked away neatly out of sight in my family tree. a hot and hispanic great great great great grand father who eloped with a hot-blooded, adventurous, gypsy ancestress of mine. yes, that must be it.

what else could explain random hispanic strangers coming up to me and talking to me in spanish like i was some long lost cousin of theirs?

scene 1:
year - 2002
where - indian grocery store

subject moi is looking for some mustard seeds in an attempt to master the fine art of south indian cooking. hispanic guy, not cute, walks up to her and asks "para español?". subject just about comprehends that the guy is trying to confirm she is hispanic. but alas, that was just about as much spanish she knew. while she tries to proffer a suitable reaction, the guy goes on jabbering in a torrent of spanish for five whole minutes at the end of which the subject's bewildered expression very effectively conveys the fact that she had not understood a word of what he so eloquently tried to tell her. completely dissed he then walks away.

(and for heaven's sake this happened in an indian grocery store! )

scene 2:
year - 2003
where - CVS pharmacy store

subject is sauntering about in her favourite cash-back joint which she visits whenever she is strapped for cash (which is almost every second day). while she is trying to figure out the most economical way of getting cash-back without ending up with something she never did need in the first place, she is approached by a young woman who, to her utter consternation, starts conversing with her in spanish. she tries telling her in english that she neither spoke nor understood spanish. somehow it dawns on her than the spanish woman knew as much english as she did spanish. it was like the deaf trying to talk to the deaf!! of the few bits and pieces of spanish she had picked up over the year, our subject recognizes one - "natural". she looks around and finds that the aisle for compact foundation powders is right behind her. putting two and two together she decides to take a chance and assume the woman needs help looking for a "natural" shade of foundation. somehow, after a lot of pointing, nodding and more pointing and nodding the spanish woman finally picks something and flashing a confused, grateful smile heads to the checkout counter.

scene 3:
year - 2004
where - fort lauderdale airport

subject moi is trying to make her way to the security check and heads towards the queue leading up to it. between her and the last person in queue is a woman who looks like she can't quite make up her mind whether to stay in line or to leave. subject goes upto her and very politely says "excuse me". the lady, equally politely tells her something in spanish. subject has no idea what to say and so doles out her standard when-spoken-to-in-spanish reply "im sorry i dont understand spanish".the lady talks some more spanish and moves out of her way. subject gratefuly heads towards the queue.

scene 4:
year - 2004
where - bus stop at the metro station

subject moi is waiting for a bus. she's had a long day, is tired and hungry and not in her brightest of moods. a hispanic-looking guy walks into the shelter with a swagger and sits on the end on the bench she is sitting on. "where do you live?", he asks her. like she was going to tell him. she doesn't answer pretending she didn't notice him. "where does this bus go to?", he asks her, persisting. "this bus goes to reston", she says. "oh, i used to live in reston, now i live in herndon", says he. what the hell do i care, she thinks to herself but doesn't say a word. "are you spanish?", he asks her. subject is now completely, totally frustrated and could have really hurt him had she found anything within her reach that could cause significant damage. fortunately for the guy the subject's bus arrives just then.

to be continued...

current song Music of the Rivers by Hariprasad Chaurasia

OUUUCCCHHHHH......
that was me 2 miles into my untill-then-very-satsfying-run when suddenly the iliotibial band (IT band for short) by my left knee decided to act up...i had no choice but to walk all the way back. that wouldn't have been half as bad if 5 mins into the walk the trail hadn't become pitch dark with various creatures of the dark clamouring loud enough to make my ears hurt. as far as i could see (which wasnt too far) i was all alone. limping my way to civilization was taking far too long. i was more scared than i have ever been in my entire life. if it wasnt for good ol hanuman chalisa, i just do not know what i would have done. phew!im glad thats over. never was i gladder to see my little car.

i swear i will never run alone after 8 pm on a trail ever again.ouccchhhh!

current song Sex and Candy by Marcy Playground

Monday, August 23, 2004

my defense mechanism is surprisingly loyal
the more threatened i feel, the nastier i get
ouch

Saturday, August 21, 2004

uhh...ummm....ha....hmmmm...who'da thunk it...oh well

I'm Monica Gellar-Bing from Friends!

Take the Friends Quiz here.

current song One More Try by George Michael



AQUA

You enjoy life, humor, and being exuberant. Wherever you go you usually find yourself stealing the spotlight without even trying. You love to let go and have fun.

Find out your color at Quiz Me!

SEVENTEEN MILES

im dead, everything hurts....good night world


Friday, August 20, 2004

homer simpson cracks me up!

"All right, brain. You don't like me and I don't like you, but let's just do this and I can get back to killing you with beer."

"And how is education supposed to make me feel smarter? Besides, every time I learn something new, it pushes some old stuff out of my brain. Remember when I took that home winemaking course, and I forgot how to drive?"

"Facts are meaningless. You could use facts to prove anything that's even remotely true!"

"Marge, can we go home? All this fresh air is making my hair move and I don't know how long I can complain."

"I like my beer cold ... my TV loud ... and my homosexuals flaming. "

"I saw this movie about a bus that had to SPEED around a city, keeping its SPEED over fifty, and if its SPEED dropped, it would explode! I think it was called, The Bus That couldn't Slow Down."

"Lurlee your song touched me in so many ways ... and which way to the can?"

current song Shimmer by Shawn Mullins

Thursday, August 19, 2004

H is in des....
sigh...

warm, dusty
folks, friends

home
beckons

invisible shackles
my heart' s already there
only, i can't move

we share
the same sky
so i'll just look up tonight mamma
and hope u do too

miss u so

current song Aaina Mujhse from Daddy by Talat Aziz

running after 3 weeks feels awesome...just me and the road and my myriad thoughts, the wind on my face

i need to re-motivate myself, i was there - just need to find my way back

current song The Redemption Song by Bob Marley

i'm overwhelmed

overwhelmed thinking of all the things that i shouldn't even be thinking about at work...
because i don't have nothing much of anything to do anymore

who am i kidding, i need another friggin job!

bah!

current song Pretty Fly for a White Guy by Offspring

Wednesday, August 18, 2004

H's gone...
funny how having someone around even for a few weeks gets so addictive

so much done in so little time - discovery, amazement, catching up, amusement, tonnes of fun and laughter, reunions, new friends, memories, the city, the beach, romance, the sarah mclachlan concert (she is oh so awesome, passion personified)

home...alone...
i enjoy my solitude but loneliness sucks...
as i reminisce, the question which by my sheer denial had retreated to the deep recesses of my mind, now hovers threateningly - closing in on me, lashing out at me
what am i doing here?


all this freedom cherished and held so precious; the price paid for it, sometimes too much, sometimes worth it all....and in then end, all i hope that i find home...the one place i can find peace - for my heart, my mind and my soul.

spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always one reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
i need some distraction
oh a beautiful release
memories seep from my veins
let me be empty
and weightless and maybe
i'll find some peace tonight

sigh...she's my angel of sleep

it sure would be nice to have someone or something to come home to

current song Angel by Sarah Mclachlan

Tuesday, August 03, 2004

  • sunflowers
  • babies
  • "ain't no mountain high enough"
  • chocolate
  • ac/dc
  • masala chai
  • "one hand in my pocket"
  • my cousin H
what do they all have in common? they have the magical power of instantly cheering me up no matter how down in the dumps i am! :-)

luv ya H. and the chair ;-)

current song One Hand In My Pocket by Alanis Morissette

Sunday, August 01, 2004

But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.

—— Robert Frost

current song
Purple Rain by Prince